In case anyone is wondering, I LOVE living by myself.
It's probably the greatest decision ever; even if I will be broke and in the poor house by the end of my rental agreement.
Two things I've noticed, though: 1) There's nothing like unexpected guests to inspire a massive cleaning-craze. And then that craze fizzles and dies quickly. Oh well, my kitchen has now been properly clean. (Even though there's that one box still sitting there, filled with things that I probably don't need, but I don't want to throw away...)
And 2) I'm very emotional.
Meaning: I cry. A lot.
It's not the depression-cry, or the self-pity cry, or anything of that nature. It's just that I watch shows like The Office or New Girl or Parenthood and I bawl. The tears well up so easily these days, and within minutes of watching something, I've got salty tear tracks running down my cheeks, a headache, and a stuffy nose. But, it's the cleansing sort of cry, so despite the aforementioned side effects, I feel great.
So, I have a daily cry-fest, and I can feel myself getting more and more emotional throughout my day. Don't even get me started on Sunday. I feel like I'm back to being the highly emotional teenager that I was.
Why did this happen after moving in by myself? I can't say. But I also can't say that it's a bad thing. I feel like I'm getting in touch with my inner sympathetic, nice person, instead of my more cynical bitter sort of person. Over the years, I've transformed from that erratic, hormonal teenager that cried -- a lot -- to a more hardened sort... I'm not sure which is worse, but for now, I think the tears are here to stay. Just don't say anything too nice to me, or I'll be a weepy mess.
Oh goodness, and I definitely can't be watching things like this:
Such an awesome song. Heaven must be enjoying his talent. Just wish that family knew exactly where zack is and what he's doing.
ReplyDeletethey look like a great family, I bet they will know someday.
DeleteSuch an awesome song. Heaven must be enjoying his talent. Just wish that family knew exactly where zack is and what he's doing.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I am way more emotional these days. TV shows, youtube videos, a good scripture, anything can get me
ReplyDeleteI'm with you. I cry almost every day and it's usually over things like TV shows and insurance commercials. Or if I watch a movie about dancing or singing. So random. Just embrace the bawl baby-ness. It's cleansing. :)
ReplyDeleteI am way more emotional now than 5 or 10 years ago. Maybe it comes with age or experience?? Either way I think it's healthy and good.
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